questions

wafting illusions lead me astray
morning eyes crash me down

the thankless world
a hapless life

changing to adapt to me
who will change me again ?
will someone ?

where will i lead myself ?
when my heart is lead to an untimely end

a thousand questions does my heart ask
a thousand pin drops does my head hear

everyday is another sear
another nail in this coffin called life


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life

it takes a life to make us realise the value of ours ,
to feel the foreboding sense of time to seep into out minds

i bow my head in respect for those who didn't get the opportunity to cherish what is close to them

pray for who are close be strong and remember the moments that they shared in happiness

i give thanks for the opportunity today and what comes tomorrow
for tomorrow is not known to anyone today

i pay my respects


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Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

rage

bridled rage seething through
suppressed emotions burning to ashes

at war with the world silently
more at war with me

screaming , wanting to break out
wishing to tear open my life

mirror mirror on the wall ... oh, woe me

i foresee my fall .....

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let me sleep

awoken into an endless nightmare
let me sleep into a dreamless night

not i wish to battle the world
just drift along into the dark void

gasp to breathe the muddled lie
reach to hold my seething rage

free my soul my heart says
cage it forever my mind does

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untitled

dark nights & never ending days
every day's folly is a mighty haze

tomorrows vision is an unborn child
today it blinds me for an unknown kind

drifting interim is a wont desire
but i waft in preeminence of wanton ire

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untitled

left out of my mind,
heartfelt sorrow makes me empty and hollow

conflicted at every turn
dejected efforts make me scald and burn

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untitled

broken skies
wet earth


hazy sight
cold feelings

desperate wishes
harsh truths

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untitled

conflicting emotions
alternate realities

impossible choices
evolving thoughts

tomorrows disaster
today's repression

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untitled

an expression of desire
an acceptance of love

the rejection of reason
the breaking of a wall

a moment in despair
a realization of pain

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rage & sadness

I have a heart full of sadness

a head full of rage

I stumble into the world

breaking apart from my senses

I fight my own demons

and i'm plagued by yours

my head is psychedelic

and my heart is black

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untitled

my head rings to the prose of dead poets
my life recants to the voice of forgotten souls

living on the edge of reality
wishing to dissuade into an illusion

struggling to fight over this obsession
overcome by the vagrancies of life

where do I go

what do I do

will someone take my hand

will someone thrust me into their love

will someone overpower this sense of foreboding

will someone ?

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untitled

the loved spurned
the heart broken

a fallen head
a heart broken

the wronged act
the heart broken

a moment of despair
a heart broken

the love lost
the heart broken

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the war

i wake up to a new day
, a new beginning

at least thats what i'm led to believe

dragging my self into a state of defeated consciousness
against my very will

everything seems in a haze
through my induced eyes

it's like an illusion
i fall

i fall rapidly

deeply

into a maze of uncertainty
a refusal of reality

i'm at war against my very senses

struggling to arise

i fall to my knees

i desist

am i wrong

or am i wronged ............

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Me, I'm Not

Well it's happening
Never planned on this
You've got something I need
Kind of dangerous
And I'm losing control
I'm not used to this
What you want from me
I'm not used to this

I can't shut it off
This thing I've begun
And it's hard to tell
Just where it's coming from
And it's hard to see
What I'm capable of
And it's hard to believe
Just, what I've become

Hey, can we stop
Me, I'm not

I can swallow it down
Keep it all inside
I define myself
By how well I hide
I feel it coming apart
Well, at least I tried